Kangana Ranaut: My BLOOD PRESSURE Went LOW & HANDS Were SHAKING When I Received Hrithik Roshan's Legal Notice

Kangana Ranaut has been making headlines ever since she appeared on Rajat Sharma's chat show. Controversies' favourite child, Kangana went to an unimaginable extent to reveal private details of her love affair with superstar Hrithik Roshan.

However, a few months back during Rangoon promotions, in and exclusive interview with SpotboyE.com, Kangana opened up for the first time up about the sensitive topic. It all probably began from there.

We republish the excerpts from the conversation. 


Why have men kept you behind the doors? You are beautiful and successful...
Everyone wants to be goody-two-shoes. That's too good to be real. Honestly, it's hard to know why they want to be holier-than-thou. Nobody talks about their relationships. Everyone wants to portray that they are virgins. I think it's because they feel that they are judged for that.

But I don't think likewise. I think people are looking for real people, they don't want to see holier-than-thou people. I have still always been open. I have even spoken about my panties and vagina. I think it's important to be yourself.

I have said so much rubbish on public platforms. When this whole controversy happened, I even accepted to being a psychopath or a whore or a witch or to having written mails which I never wrote. I accepted simply to test what kind of response I get.



And?
I got beautiful letters of love. I was appointed Head Of A Witch Community formed by some young women (laughs). I love my audience.

People are living in delusions. I am sorry for them, they are not living real lives and not getting true love.

Do you think you made wrong choices in your love life?
They're not wrong choices. It's just that one thing rolls into another and you don't reach anywhere because of a certain path. I too initially thought that you cannot speak about your affairs and many other things because the society is judgmental. If this obstacle hadn't come my way, I would have still remained in that cocoon.

But this particular incidence taught me that there's no such thing. Everybody is struggling with his/her life. Nobody realises it but deep down, we all know what's our true essence and what goes on in human psyche- whether it's malice, hostility, love or desire. So why be fake? Why not bare your soul? I think this incidence only taught me that there is acceptance and love out there from people.



But in your love story, don't you think you appeared naive?
Not true. The picture was wrongly portrayed in that manner. I am not someone who will show patience against something that is my attacking my dignity. Take my word, I have never begged any man to stay if he wanted to leave. I have never suggested any relationship to be dragged if it has died. In fact, I have been the one to say: 'Why drag dead meat?'

And I hold pride in that. I hold the trend to carry on without any weakness. And people want to attack that very thing. But I am a great daughter, friend and lover.

So why did it end?
Two different personalities.

You didn't realise it in the beginning...
We are not here to talk about what has gone in the grave, We can go on dissecting but...



You have problems, but every time you fight against odds, re-surface and reach the top. How do you do that? 
What option did he leave me with? He sent me a notice asking me to apologise in front of everyone. But am I going to do that? It's not fighting back, but  I am not going to respond to such bullying. So, I sent a notice back. Till date, I have not said 'Sorry', though he's going on forgiving me.

That doesn't answer my question. Let me put it differently. How do you concentrate on your work in such times?
It's very difficult. A part of you is falling, and a bunch of jealous hacks are trying to down you. It is terrible when you are betrayed by someone to whom you have given all your love and faith to. I was in Arunachal Pradesh when the notice came. I was going for my shots--- and my hands were shaking and blood pressure went low. The phone was ringing. It was crazy.

There's a world out there which is coming crashing down, you are giving a shot of a film which is your priority but whose fate you don't know. It's a tragedy of different proportion. 



You were the first one to call me on this, and you broke this news first.

Yes. Were you taken aback?
I was shattered. I didn't expect it.



Go on...
I meditate a lot. I remove the trash off my head. I tell to myself: Save yourself right now, it's okay if people get hurt. Don't worry about tomorrow.

Averse to men, love and marriage now?
No. I have some wonderful men around me, who have supported me through this. This man has gone to big people to sabotage my career, but nobody entertained him. I am grateful to all those who stood by me.

Yours is a big success story. Would you put it that way?
I have succeeded in living a free life. When I wake up every morning, I feel happy and independent.


Kangana Ranaut

You sleep well?
Yes (smiles).

So unlike to when I was trained to cook food and wash plates when I was 10. I was even trained to remove stains from garments. And why? Because my parents said that I shouldn't be beaten up by my in-laws!

Look at my life now. Yes, it is truly a success story. Isn't it a free India? (laughs).


Hrithik Roshan And Kangana Ranaut

Do you know how to cook now?
Yes, I can even do my laundry. I will also train my children to cook and do their laundry but not out of fear--- but only because I would want them to be independent.

You were averse to awards. You took one at Filmfare, last year. Are you changing in that aspect?
Have you seen award functions? They're all yawning there. At one time before social media came into effect, it was a big thing to get a glimpse of your favourite star at the commercial awards. But now with the advent of social media, you can see him/her dancing and even get into their bathrooms.

One doesn't look forward to an award function as he/she did 20 years ago. It doesn't thrill me to see so many stars together. it's just not exciting, and so I don't like to invest my time. I do certain things which I want and I don't do certain things which I don't want. 

So, you are not on Twitter...
Twitter is very consuming. We have so little time for ourselves, Twitter closes the doors on us to get close to ourself.

There are so many thoughts on Twitter, it makes people so superficial. The greats had the stamina to pursue one thought to its logical conclusion. 

What is happening however now is that people are shrinking their IQ. It is one thing to accumulate knowledge, it is a different thing altogether to assimilate it.


Hrithik Roshan And Kangana Ranaut In Krrish 3

Let's put the name out. Where is your case with Hrithik Roshan going?
Woh bhi koi case tha? There was an impersonator who wanted to imitate only Hrithik and is in love with me. I am in love with Hrithik and since he wants a 'Sorry' from me he sent me a Defamation. And now, there's no impersonator and no Defamation.

It's all out in the open and we all know it is such a random thing. I always knew it won't go anywhere.

You seduce the sensationalism of journalism by making tall claims that you will spill a big secret about a girl. What sense did it make? It went on for a year, mind you.

If you are carrying such a master plan you SHOULD have a big reveal at the end isn't it? Bull s**t, crap.

It's behind us, we should move on.

Moral of the story: People should not unnecessarily bully people just because they are powerful. It does not get anywhere. 

Next is Hansal Mehta's Simran. And after that, Ketan Mehta's Rani Laxmibai?
Yes, and I am so excited about both.


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